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You might want to know why "PoppySeed Love Photography"...?

I will be honored if you take your time and read my story.

(Please kindly note that the story might be triggering for some individuals.)

Many of you asked me “Why PoppySeed Love Photography”? Most photographers use combination of their first and last names to create a business name.

My name is not PoppySeed...

But it was a nickname of my little girl who I lost in first trimester. I am a mom of two beautiful boys and one special girl who was born way too early. My husband I always gave nicknames to our babies as soon as we knew I am pregnant. When we found out I am pregnant with baby number two, that little miracle became “PoppySeed.” We were so excited! We were wondering if it’s a boy or a girl. We were so happy that our older son will have a sibling. There was pure joy and I immediately loved that little growing life under my heart…

But then our world crashed. My world fell aparat when I heard the worst words “I am sorry, there is no heartbeat. There is nothing”. 1 in 4 women will experience this kind of loss. I became one of them. I never knew you can cry so much. I never knew you can feel such a terrible pain. The pain that makes you feel like part of your heart died. Like you can’t breathe anymore. You leave the hospital with empty heart and empty hands. I can’t even describe the darkness that was around me and I know I wouldn’t have survived if it wasn’t for my son and husband.

Our PoppySed was a girl.

We knew, we will never name our PoppySeed. We will never hug her, watch her grow, show her the world, brush her hair and put her to sleep under cozy blanket. We will never whisper to her ears how much we love her.

And then we found out I am expecting again. The joy mixed with fear. But our baby was growing strong and then we learned it’s a boy! Pregnancy after loss is different. You are afraid to be happy, because what if… what if something is wrong again. But our rainbow baby was born healthy and happy and I cried again but this time I cried because I felt so much relief.

Of course I was taking milion pictures a day of my new baby, his brother, our family. I always loved photography and got my first camera in high school. Then my husband and another friend convinced me to finally make another step and offer my skills to others. I started learning more, followed other photographers and focused on safety while taking pictures. Especially safety of newborns and children.

I didn’t even think twice about the name for my small business. I knew my girl will be part of it and that’s how “PoppySeed Love Photography” was born. Silly? Maybe. But it healed my soul. I absolutely love taking pictures for others. I find special joy when I do newborn photography. I feel like the love I had and still have for my lost child, can live through my pictures. Every little baby I hold brings so much love and happiness to my heart! I truly enjoy meeting all the beautiful Families and tell their stories. I love when you share part of your journey with me.

Some of the parents share with me that they also have their rainbow baby. I feel honored if you share it with me. I understand the mix of emotions.

So now you know. There is a rainbow after the storm. It doesn’t mean you have to forget the storm. Just try to focus on healing.

I hope I will meet more Poppy Friends and will capture more special Moments for you! I wanted to share my story to promise you that I will always try my best! I will be gentle and kind. And thankful that you are sharing piece of your story and life with me.

Every family is unique and I am honored I met or will meet yours!

Because PoppySeed Love Photography is not only about taking pictures, but also about sharing LOVE.